God please Grant me peace

Wow, it's been almost a week or it has been a week since I've last updated. Their has just been so much going on lately I don't even know where to begin? My home got broken into about a week ago. It was the weekend that Eric went to San Antonio for a basketball game. I decided to come home that weekend because it would've just been difficult to get around because my roommate Fabian was going up to Austin. So I'd have to stay with Ulyssa and Lord knows Uly and Eric don't get along. So anywho, I went home to make Eric happy cause the thought of me with Uly all weekend didn't tickle his pickle correctly. So, I got home and immediately went to say Hello to Eric. Well that night I went to HEB and bought a lot of goodies and a card for Eric so I could put a goodie bag together so he could take with him on the way over. I went that morning to his house and dropped it off. He liked it all very much and I stayed up till about 5 AM also making him this photo book of us. It was really neat it basically had every picture we've taken and that's a lot if you've seen our myspace.Anywho, well the weekend was really lonely without Eric. He got back Saturday night which was when we got broken into. That day I had been shopping with my mother and we got back from the mall around 7:30. I have these neighbors across the street who are just a bunch of low life mojos. I don't mean to say it like that but it's the dead truth. There home has like a broken roof. I think they don't have electricity. Anywho, well basically who lives there is like a mother and her older sons. I always see this weirdo man just sitting outside the house facing the street watching the street and basically watching out house. It's right across the street. Well when we got back from the mall they were outside. So I get dressed because I was going to go have dinner with Randal at Chilis. He picked me up and when I left they saw me leave. So my mom went to HEB during that short time I was gone.They saw my mom leave so during that time they decided to break an entry into my home.I got home around 9:10. The robbers were still inside my house when I got there. I guess I scared them off when I got there. I knew something was up cause I heard the dogs barking like crazy. I couldn't go in cause I was locked out and my mom hadn't come home yet. So I was sitting outside on the bench talking with Randall. I guess during that time they made an exit. So my mom gets there about 30 mins after. I go in walk to my room cause I wanted to change. I notice there’s glass on the floor and I look up and my window is fucken open! It was THEE worst feeling alive. I run and yell at mom saying They broke into the house. I knew they did the moment I looked in my brothers room and his Xbox 360 that was there before I left was gone! I ran to look in my moms room and they stole all her jewelry! All of it!! I guess they had just broken in and they did a quick grab and got the easiest things they could've gotten. Well right now we're in the process of looking for another home. The home we're in was never intended on us living there I guess we never decided to move cause moving is always a pill. But yeah now we are so hopefully by the summer we're back in Alamo. The downfall of living in Alamo is I won't be as close to Eric as I am now. Pretty lame but I'm sure we'll manage we usually do. So basically a lot of bad things are just happening. Well I went back to School Tuesday went to class all week pretty boring. The weather was cold and I didn't enjoy it. I came back to the valley this weekend on Friday. That's my first day of my spring break. I won't go back to school till the 24th I believe. I finished my midterms and told my professors I won't see them till after spring break. They were cool with it. Anywho, well I come back to the valley Friday with my friend Jade. I got home pretty late. Later than usual. Eric had bought us tickets to see Tracy Byrd and Josh Gracin in concert at the Live Stock show in Mercedes. So I hurried my ass up and got dressed really fast. I guess that's where my night started going bad . I mean I hate to get rushed when I'm getting dressed. So I go pick up Eric and switch seats so he can drive over to Mercedes while I do my makeup! We get there and Josh Gracin comes on. Of course Eric and I argue about something. So we leave and Miss a majority of his concert. We didn't leave we sat outside in a bench talking? Weird.. Anyway, we makeup become husband and wife again and enjoy Tracy Byrd performance. It was Erics first concert. I wasn't informed of that till a day later. Well anyway the concert ends around 11:40 I would assume. Eric and I are starving and we decided to not get food from the stock show.But we got a turkey leg and lemonade:X it was a must! Anywho, we drive to Mcallen and stop to eat at Denny's on Nolana. We eat a feast and leave because our parents panties were tied in a bunch! So I end up driving to drop off Eric. It's usually like that anyway nothing out of the ordinary. Well here’s where this story gets bad. So I’m on the expressway driving. Eric took my phone from my hand and I tired getting it back but when I did he yanked his hand back and I jerked the wheel and I started swerving. Well I tried getting back into the lane and I moved the wheel to the left but I went to far left and then I moved it to the right and I guess I jerked it too much to the right and my mom car began to spin in circles about 4 or 5 times. It was terribly scary. During that one big Jerk that made the car spin I collided heads with Eric. I then got a concussion and knocked the fuck out! I then woke up to my car spinning one last time and crashing into the barrier of the expressway. I could've sworn my vehicle flew off the Fucken Bridge. I was so scared. I was going psycho! I didn't know what to do. I was so fucken scared. I still am. I'm really paranoid about being in a car now. I don't know how long it's going to take me to start driving again. I ended up in the ER that night. I had a huge bump/ball on my head due to that concussion. My body two days after is still in a lot of pain. I'm bruised badly. Eric, has a ball on his brow where he collided heads with me. He also got a bruise on his leg and he's now complaining of chest pains. It's scaring me actually:/.My mom arrived to the scene so fucken fast. She got there before the cops did. I was so scared cause she trusted me with one of her most valued things and I totaled the fucker:/So yeah now she's probably going to have to buy a new car because I wrecked the frame as well. We all know that once you mess up the frame of the car it doesn't work the same. Wow, how could I be such a fuck up. Eric keeps blaming himself for the accident. I mean I'm not going to point fingers. I'm just going to say it was both of our faults in one way or another. Tomorrow is Monday or well Today is Monday and I have a CT scan at the hospital and a check up as well. Geezus, why have bad things just been happening. I went to church today and I felt a bit better with things. I prayed so hard and I took communion as well. Eric and I usually don't take communion when we know we've sinned badly. I've been good. So I took it and I was really content after church. Well Eric and I are doing okay after all this. I just still feel like shit for my mom and well that things I put her through. May God grant Eric and I and my family help and strength to help us get pass this stage in life. Things still haven't changed at Eric’s house. They're driving him insane by being so careless towards him. What parents don't ask how their child is doing after a severe accident? They have yet to ask him how he's feeling or if he's okay?! I wish my mom was his mom. She cares so much for him. He called me crying saying my mom is so mean. The morning after the accident she wakes him up screaming telling him to get out of bed. Not even checking on him if he's alright? For Pete’s sake they made him cut the grass and wash the vehicle!! :/ Argh. I wish things changed at his home and got better. I pray so much for him and his family. God will help us through this trying time... he will..


Here are some pictures of the car. These were taken at the wrecker yard. It's only one portion of the car that I captured. Probably thee worst damaged as well.