Stop and think of me

So I'm coming up on my year anniversary with Eric in June. I'm really happy that we've stuck with each other for this long and still love each other more and more everyday. He seriously makes me happy no matter. Anyway, well I guess I can finally grow to admit that I'm not the same Sarah I was back in High School. I'm not the "I don't give a shit" girl anymore I have some set priorities now. I gave San Antonio a try. Don't get me wrong it was an experience worth doing all over again. I can't say I enjoyed SA as much as I thought I was going to. But Of course when I chose Incarnate Word as a choice of school I didn't see a relationship in my future. But Eric came into my life in mid June so that changed the whole plan. Eric gave me restrictions and grew more and more insecure with himself/me. Those of you who know me well know I've had my share of relationship,flings,dates,boys..Whatever you wanted to call them. When I engaged into my relationship I had baggage and a hell of a past!So he knows I can get guys within a snap of a finger it's not hard. But he grew to be an insanely jealous person. Don't get me wrong I'm a jealous person as well but I'm mature enough to accept things and come to an understanding. Eric's age does nothing for his insecurities. So back to my story I just had to trace back the story. Well, while I lived in SA I didn't go to many clubs. The ones I did were either Gay clubs or maybe a few clubs with Cristy. Other than that I didn't experience the whole "first year college experience". When my roommates and friends would go to a party I'd stay home on the phone with Eric cause he wouldn't let me go. When I had people over he'd make me stay locked up in my room while everyone was having a ball in my living room. Nevertheless, I was never at the apartment in SA on the weekends. There I was on a 3 and half hour trip back to the valley to see Eric. Never once did he come to visit me for a weekend. It's not his fault though he's still in HS and yes we all know how parents are and rules. So I'm okay with that. But I really wish I could've lived my life a bit differently. Maybe even drank while I was in SA. I totally gave up drinking when I moved up for Eric. Eric is super straight edge. He has never consumed alcohol, smoked a cigarette, and been to a party/club EVER in his life! So his whole ideal image of a party is totally ridiculous. So, here's my plan....I'm going to move back to the valley for two semesters Fall 08' and Spring 09'. I'm going to wait for Eric to graduate so he can go back up to SA with me. I plan on attending Incarnate Word again for Fall 09' . Which means I'm going to stick to the same Degree plan that I have issued from Incarnate Word. Argh, I really wish Eric would change his stupid Insecure ways like soon. Who knows time will tell. I need to be patient with things in my life. I'm going to start working again soon that should be interesting. I was thinking about looking for a second job. I'm not too sure about that just yet. Hm, my birthday is in three weeks who would've though I'm coming to my last teen year. Awee.. haha. Hm, on a lighter note I think Eric's mom is pretty okay with me now. I went back up to SA with them one weekend they dropped me off as they stayed at the Embassy Suites in SA. His father is a coach and was coaching the all star game hosted at Trinity University. So basically we bonded on the way up. Also, not to mention she picked me up the next morning I spend the whole day with them literally. She told me to stay the night because she was too tired to drop me off. So I shared a bed with her..Totally weird but I guess this is what it took for her to give me a chance for once. She's a really nice lady and I really do like her. I may not approve of things she's told Eric in the past but she's his mother and she can say what she pleases to him.Hm, did I mention I'm in love with Church? Yeah, I am! The life teen Mass at Sacred Heart in Edinburg is great! If you're from the Valley and from the Mcallen/Edinburg area you should check it out! That's of course if you're a church person! Hm, it's getting really late and just thought I’d ramble off about things..
Peace..
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