So lately,things have been really good. I mean I can't complain. I have a wonderful boy in my life,great family and amazing friends. I can't help but to say i'm not the best of friends out there. One thing I’m going to state is that being in a long distance relationship is something really difficult to maintain. I have to make a lot of sacrifices and do things just to keep my relationship on a steady level. I say this because I admit I've neglected my best friend Priscilla. Not completely shut her out of my life but I haven't been the best friend who calls everyday just to see how things are going. At the moment both of my best friends are in relationships. They're both pretty serious with their significant other as I am with Eric. Priscilla, is in a new relationship and I understand she's doing all the things that usually happen when the relationship begins. It's that first time dating amazing feeling she's going through and I understand she wants to spend every waking moment with him. Common' who wouldn't? If I had a choice to see Eric every weekend or everyday most definitely I'm going to choose see Eric everyday. I guess I was trying to give her that time. I understand she tries so hard to call me and when she calls I don't answer cause i'm busy doing heaven knows what or I’m most likely always on the phone with Eric. But I'm going to try to call her at least once a day because I can honestly say I will never ever find another best friend like her. No one not anyone can replace my best friends. I've been best friends with the girl since 5th grade. We're both well almost at our last years of being teens. She's already nineteen and i'll be nineteen in the next four months. It's so odd how times flies by so fast. One day we're having sleepovers doing karaoke the next we're going to college and studying like mad women and talking about marriage and children! But I thank the good Lord everyday for her. She keeps me in line. We've gone through our ups and downs but in the end we're always going to be the best of friends. I know it. I know we're going to keep in contact no matter what we're doing or where are. Like the movie "Beaches" with Bette Midler is our movie. We have a friendship like that. No matter what we're going to be best friends. The scenario of that movie is basically about these two young girls meet at a beach. Bette Midler plays this talented little girl who's mother and she are trying to make it big with her acting and singing. So she meets another little girl on the beach who comes from a wealthy family and she was amazed with Bette Midler and her talent. They kept in touch through the years by writing letters everyday to each other and remained best friends. Many years later they move in together and basically it's just a movie of a true friendship. I believe Priscilla and I share that friendship. If you're reading I hope you know I value our friendship more than anything in this world and I'm sorry. I truly am.
I just had to get that off my chest. As for Eric and I we have it pretty good at the moment. It's not the best yet. We don't have everything to our advantage but I'm just blowing a lot of things off. I've never had to deal with so much family issues ever. It really hurts me a lot that Eric has to go through it at home. I feel I’m at fault for why he goes through episodes of sadness and what not.People can think what they want of me or say rumors that aren't true about me. But when I got into this relationship since day one I've been so honest with him. I think without honesty a relationship cannot stand healthy. But their will always be people who would kill to watch me fall or us fall but that's life. I pray every night that things get better. I pray so hard. I really wish his family would just accept me. Not so much his whole family but eh certain ones. I rather not pin point certain people out. I wish they could get to know me who I really am and not from what they've "heard" about me. But I'm just going to keep on praying and minding my own business and be hopeful for out future. We had a great Valentines Day. We spent the whole day together and having fun. Venturing off into scary haunted places, nature walks, visiting historical landmarks, sushi and taking pictures:). All in all it was a great day. We didn't exactly spend Thursday the 14th together we had to spend it on Saturday. I guess they made a new rule for Eric and he can only go out once a weekend? I guess we have to accommodate their likings. But either way we find ways to see each other even if it's for 15 minutes I’m okay with that. I just know we're not going anywhere so I just hope all that nonsense ends. I really want to make peace but it's so hard when no one tries. People, pray for us and for me.
Oh, here are a few pictures from our "valentines day"
School, well it's been going. I'm not taking any difficult classes this semester thank the good Lord. But I suffered a kidney infection about two weeks ago and missed a week of class so I've been struggling trying to keep up with homework. But I’m slowly but surely keeping up with it all. I just want school to end already so I can move back to the valley. I know that was never in my plans to even move back. I moved up to SA for a reason. But I need to wait for Eric to graduate and as most of yall know he needs one more year. I'm willing to suffer at Pan Am for two semesters. Hey, at least I’ll be paying a lot less compared to my 30 grand tuition I pay at Incarnate Word. But I cannot ditch Incarnate Word just like that. I do have plans to come back in 2009. Which is next year so it isn't so bad. I want to get my Bachelors degree in Nutrition from there. Then I'll venture of to get my Masters else where just not too sure where yet? I start my internship I'm hoping in August at a WIC clinic. I'm hoping to do reception work or some sort of secretarial work. I have to work there to do my internship through there and have the State of Texas pay for my internship. Because, in order to be qualified for that internship I need to be employed with WIC for a year and then i'll become eligible for the internship. So, I’m really excited about that.
That's really all I have to ramble off for tonight.
xoxoxoxo
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